in and out

[verse 1 - outer me]
ding, goes the notification
heck yea, my picture got a mention
ok, ok
let me see what’s happening real quick
it’ll only be a minute, it’ll only be a click
oh but wait,
look where Carol goes to
oh and snap,
look at what Joe is up to
I want my life to be interesting like that
I want all my friends to envy me at last

[verse 2 - inner me]
cmon, be real
your life isn’t a highlight reel
there’s nuance, and depth
it’s the ups and downs that give life breadth
so what do you really want?
ask it deeply
cause all these distractions…
they’ll cost you steeply

[chorus]
(because I’m…)
in and out of this life we call life
tryna make sense of what’s wrong and what’s right
right for him, wrong for me
that’s not who I want to be

[verse 1 - outer me]
that image I put out isn’t me
it’s who I feel the gram wants me to be
how to get attention, what will come easy?
I chase these likes, it makes me uneasy
and I don’t even see a reason to it
yet I continue to go on and do it
all so I can know your thinking of me
all so you can be jealous, of who I don’t even want to be

[verse 2 - inner me]
calm down, calm down
turn you’re phone off, shut down
breathe in, breathe out
no, stop it, put that damn phone down
you’re not an exhibitionist, you’re not a voyeur
it’s such pettiness that makes your life poor
you need a break from these self-absorbed petty feeds
you need to focus on some self-actualized needs

[chorus]
(because I’m…)
in and out of this life we call life
tryna make sense of what’s wrong and what’s right
right for him, wrong for me
that’s not who I want to be